Awkward Defined

I went to Northview on Sunday. I was 5 minutes late but I was there.

Out of more than 1,000 that I don't know, guess who I managed to sit uncomfortably close to?

Some guy I 'rejected' off eHarmony a couple of months ago for reasons I will not disclose. I don't think he would have noticed except for he turned around to leave half way through the service and scowled right at me.

Awesome.

The world is far too small.

What Have You Done Today?

I've been awakened by barks at 4:30, 5:20 and 6:00 am since going to bed.

I couldn't find a hair clip.

I found the dog laying on what I picked out to wear today.

I skipped breakfast (as per usual).

I got Starbucks but have been so busy at work I've only managed to sip 1/8 of my full fat Caramel Macchiato (I got up cranky, when that happens there is no such thing as non fat for me).

I've come home (the place I'm housesitting at until tomorrow) only to have to clean up MORE dog poo.

I have to go back to work.

So? How has YOUR day been so far?

(Don't worry, I already hear you all playing the world's smallest violins)

This and Not Very Much That

Not much to report these days although I must advise that I most certainly did not accept the promotion offered to me. It was surprisingly painful to have to say to my boss, partially because this little nagging part of me doesn't want to let people down. I've gotten over most of it but this little part of me gets in the way - blast!
Despite my 2 days of tension induced headaches and nausea I let 'er rip.

A strange thing happened - I felt absolutely, deliciously self indulgent for a moment... I had made a decision to better myself. What a relief! No one's going to be looking after me any time soon, I suppose I'd better get with it and do it for myself.

Moving on... literally in 2 weeks. I will be in civilization once again and I'm so happy about it. And to be on my own again, what a joy. I'm hoping to find a great place to live and to create my home well. I'm not going to wait until I have my own family to make my home comfortable, I'm going to start now.

I'm once again inspired to revisite that oldy but goody weight issue. I won't bore you again until I feel like I'm winning the battle, or at the very least at war with it. I have been recently inspired by a dear friend and her "Ultimate Life Challenge" that she's embarked upon. I'll post links to her blog at a later time but its a painfully honest blog about her struggles with her weight and self image.

I have not successfully gained control over this issue in my life. I've prayed, I've fasted, I've dieted (ask me about the pros and cons of just about any diet), I've dieted, I've dieted. Still I clumsily dance the fine line between healthy self image and poor health. I find it increasingly difficult to not use feeling good about myself as an excuse to stay the same in body.

I read in O Magazine the other day how we tend to talk about things and somehow in our muddled up ways of thinking it counts as action to us.

Talk does not equal action. So until I'm actioning, I won't speak of it again.

In summation, I have wheels, I have a job, I have a plan and I'm getting a move on it.

Lessons in Irony

I had a pretty fab (albeit short) holiday down south. The weather was unbelievable, I drank more Starbucks than I have in the entire last 5 years, saw SPAMALOT (flippin' hilarious), and enjoyed plenty of family time.

I also got offered a job. They pay well and seem to really look after their employees (wellness plan... hello?). Never mind that they offered me a moving allowance.

I accepted said job.

I marched into my current place of employ fully intending to hand in my notice and was greeted with a 'so glad you're back and by the way we'd like to make you assistant manager.' What??

My brief spurt of courage melted and I could barely utter a word. Ultimately I don't want to be here and while another new position (my fourth since starting here) means more money, it also means longer hours without overtime pay. This translates in REAL HOURS as a pay decrease.

I guess I'll just have to pretend I thought about it and tell them tomorrow.

PS Althought I've tried not to mention "GG" for a little while my parents are fully hooked on the show, they think its hilarious!

Life As I Knew it Has Resumed

Well, I finished all 7 seasons of Gilmore Girls last weekend. I laughed, I cried and mourned the fact it is over. This show is now tied with Friends for my all time favourite tv shows and I will watch it over and over in the years to come. Seriously, I can't believe its over. Stupid network changes.

It has also reminded me again that there's nothing much for me to do with my time here in the Creek.

Never mind, I'm heading to Abbotsford for holidays next Saturday. Yipee! Hooray for shopping, Starbucks and visiting with old friends. I'm also having a face to face meeting with my would be employers when I get there... wish me luck.

Until then I will be busy packing, organizing and creating my shopping list.

If I don't write anymore until after my holidays... happy Canada Day everybody!

Drama-lama-ding-dong

Someone recently said drama seems to follow you wherever you go.

While there is some truth to this, especially considering the events of the last well... 10 years or so... ok lets face it; the last 27 years... I'd like to stop this trend some time too.

Last Wednesday the bank I work at was robbed. That's right. Robbed. It wasn't myself but a coworkers wicket. The guy insinuated he had a weapon and quietly told the girl what he wanted. Procedure is to give him whatever the hell he wants and let him get out then you can freak out if you want to. As soon as we heard the "lock the doors!!!" we knew what was going on.

We then spent the afternoon with cops around making a mess of the branch and trying to keep our sanity. I mean, it wasn't that traumatic overall but its weird to think that someone would do that, especially in a small town.

In all honesty I think the most exhausting thing was all the questions from clients the next day. Oh and special shout out to all you idiots who were pissed off we were closed, angrily banging on the doors, totally ignoring the "we're closed for an emergency" sign and the several policemen who were inside the branch. You'd think they'd put two and two together but the cops said you'd be surprised how people don't think.

Anyways, they caught the idiot the next day so I think that made everyone feel a bit better.

They haven't been robbed in 25 years or something like that. I think its because I work there now that there is some excitement. Drama. It follows me.

Other than that, life is the same. I'm really craving my own space. I'm working on that.

Still watching Gilmore Girls. I know its a terrible sickness, its a vice I'm aware of but just can't/won't help it. I watched an entire season over Saturday and Sunday. Well, I intended to watch just the last disc of Season 5 Sunday night but it ended on such a tense moment I HAD to watch the next disc... and the next. I have a problem. I cried when Luke and Lorelai got together. I cried when they broke up. I cried when they got together again. I'm sorry, but I love them together. That's the kind of fun relationship I would like (well, maybe not the on again off again stuff... and maybe not all the sex... alright I'm totally lying about that last part). Luke's all rough and tumble on the outside but is such a softie on the inside. Plus he can cook.

Seriously, I need to get a life and thats exactly what I intend on doing. I know its just a show and all but believe it or not it really, really got me thinking on the weekend about what I want out of life.

I need to start going after what it is that I want again. The stuff that makes me tick, not just what ticks the time away.

Speaking of time... I've got to go Luke and Lorelai await.

Oh and a big old Happy Birthday to my sis! Make some bread for me will ya.

Is There Anything More Wonderful?

Ahhh Saturday. The promise of a sleep in and day that will be whatever you want it to be. Admittedly my sleep ins are nowhere near what they were in high school but an extra hour seems like heaven! Never mind the fact that work is not waiting for your arrival.

Today I:

1) Watched Gilmore girls. Upon waking up. Sorry folks, I'm addicted to this well worth it Amazon purchase. I'm in the middle of season 3 and I really really don't like Rory and Jess together.
2) Played Super Mario Galaxy on Wii. My mother is ahead of me.
3) Did a few People crossword puzzles.
4) Watched some lame Canadian made for TV movie.
5) Thought about making cookies than decided against it.
6) Read. A little.
7) Watched more Gilmore Girls. After I'm finished my complete set I promise I'll get help.
8) Discussed my 'Birkman' test results with a potential employer.
9) Did some more Amazon browsing and checked emails.

Wow what a full Saturday huh? I need to get a life...

Speaking of which:

1) Am getting a flight paid for to talk with my new potential employers. I was pretty floored by that offer.
2) The day before this plan for me was announced my current job gave me a promotion. Boy am I dreading the conversation I'll need to have with that boss.
3) Am getting very excited about the prospect of moving back to the coast.

Hopefully my Saturdays will be looking very different soon.

Until then... I'm watching more Gilmore Girls. Judge if you must...